Not long at all.

I figured that you would last at least a month since our talk but I should have known better. You actually lasted a little more than a week. I guess you had to use up what little minutes you had left in your account. Brought yourself down to 1 minute remaining.

You are working a night shift now so plenty of unspoiled uninterrupted time during the day while I'm at work. And I guess these past two days you have been taking FULL advantage. Although I guess the 1 minute wasn't good enough. I just checked and you have 97 f^cking minutes left to use!!! WTF???

I checked your bank statement - not seeing it there. I also noticed there were videos viewed on Friday. I don't remember did you come home early on that day or did you purchase and view when you were out with your friend?

Maybe you got smart and bought a gift card from a store and that's how you purchased. I guess smart on your part. I'll never actually "see" the charge on your bank statement. And of course no toilet paper wads left in the waste basket.

I kind of figured the anal I gave to you would have been "dirty" enough for you... but I guess not. You just can't resist the temptation. Boy I love you.

We'll see

About two weeks ago we worked on our bills. We decided we wanted to narrow down how much we were spending on items so we each printed out our bank statements and went through each line item naming them. Such as entertainment, personal, gas, groceries etc. When I got to the website that I know prints for the minutes you pay I asked how you wanted to name this one in such a way that told you "I knew what it was for". Then I also mentioned you needed to start finding the free stuff so I wouldn't know.

Then one day last week I came home to find another wad of toilet paper in the trash can so I knew you had been busy. I was depressed all night, you even asked what was wrong. Then the next day you stayed home sick. I knew that you had viewed again since you might as well take advantage of me not being there. Again you asked what was wrong with me.

I asked, "what do you like in your girlfriends that you don't like in me?" We had a small discussion about this. I mentioned that as far as I knew you have been doing this for years but I just didn't know. I mentioned that since I know now it bugs me. Makes me wonder why you don't enjoy yourself with me as often as you do your girlfriends. I even brought up, again, wanting to get videos for both of us to enjoy. You finally basically told me that did not interest you. Basically it is a self enjoyment thing. You asked if I wanted you to stop looking at it. I told you I could ask you to stop till I was blue in the face but obviosly that will never happen (as mentioned before I've flat out asked MANY times before).

We had another discussion and you mentioned that you can never masturbate again. I told him I never said that. So I guess you only associate porn with masturbation. I told you that of course I occansionally masturbate but when I do I'm thinking of you - which is true! I don't need to think of others or watch porn.

But anyway you haven't viewed since our discussion. I assume it will happen again after a few months or so but maybe you will be more discreet than you have been the past month or so. And I did bring up the toilet paper wads so maybe you'll flush them now instead of throwing them away for me to see them.

We'll see. However I do take the words, "Love, Honor and Cherish" seriously.

Wow!

You trully amaze me. I checked your "viewing minutes" before I left for an errand yesterday and you had 3 minutes left. Now you have 23. I know you can only buy in certain increments so you did a bit of viewing yesterday.

This bugs me so much that I woke up last night and couldn't get back to sleep cause I just kept thinking about you looking at this stuff. Plus I found the wad of cum filled toilet paper so I KNEW you definitely enjoyed yourself while I was away. I even asked for sex last night, granted it was a little late, and you said no because it was a little late.

Then I kind of thought about it this morning. Basically - you're cheating on me. You're out having sex with all these other women and not me. You have probably pleasured yourself with all of these other women more times this month than you have with me.

what do I do?

A few years back I accidently ran upon a few porn sites my hubby was viewing. Seriously it was an accident. He walked in as I accidently found them. I told him that this of course bothered me. (and yes men it is because us women think you're thinking of these other women because you feel we're inadequate and all that other jazz) He promised me he would never do it again.

A couple times since then I have actually snooped to see if he was still viewing, of course he was. I brought it up once and of course he denied it.

Well recently I've discovered he's doing it again. He has great opportunity when he gets home before I do from work. Or say on a day he stays home from work sick. It's not like I haven't offered to purchase some videos that we can view together. Or try new things during sex to help with those fantasies and stuff. What more can I do?

So my question... why do men insist on watching this stuff? Really, do we not satisfy you enough?

Any men who pass by let me know. Are you in a relationship? Does your partner know? Have they caught you before and you told them you would stop but still did it anyway?

Women? Have you caught your partner? Did you confront them? What'd they say? As far as you know, are they still looking?

Hello

Although I have another blog this one is my private blog. You know the blog that I'm able to actually speak about what I really want to speak about. I won't tell my friends about it so if necessary I can talk about things and not worry about what they think.

This is probably going to be more of a bitch blog. What type of bitching you might ask? Trying to have a baby, if I really want one. Sex. Porn (of course not me hubby). Drinking (again not me).

So here is where I'll come to bitch when I get the capability to do so.