Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Will it actually last this time?

A month or so ago we had company staying with us. While you and I were out running some errands we were talking about joining a gym. I made a comment that would be cool then maybe we would have energy to have s*x more often, you agreed. Then I made a comment about when that happened you wouldn't need to visit your girlfriends anymore. You asked me when I thought the last time you had gone to one of those sites was and I mentioned a couple of weeks. The way I figured it - kind of hard to "sleep in" and check them out in the morning with company in the next room. Or to "come home early" again due to company.

I was a little shocked to find out that was untrue. You had managed to find a way. Should have known when you were working on your wireless on your laptop that you would try it that way. Of course as it always does I immediatly go into a funk at the discovery. And per normal you noticed and asked what was wrong. Usually I say nothing but this time I didn't.

I asked why you still look at that stuff. We had a bit of a conversation about it. You mentioned that obviously I don't approve and you'll no longer do it again. Of course I was thinking to myself "every time I bring this up I've never 'approved', that's why I bring it up!" Either you've gotten WAY better at hiding it or so far you have lived up to your promise. I'm finally starting to trust you in this matter again. I just hope it continues. :-)