Failed!

Hubby has been really cute about this pregnancy thing. He keeps saying things like...

"How long before we know we're pregnant?"
"Sure is hard making a baby"
"Are we pregnant yet?"

He's even thinking up baby names. I think they're cute I just don't participate in the play. I guess I can't until I know for sure that we are pregnant and its a reality. I never played that game when I was little and all the girls did that.

And "lucky me" the cramps I was experiencing yesterday just reinforced that our 3 days in a row didn't work... I guess we'll have to try again!

3 days in a row! ! !

We've had discussions about getting pregnant. I've told you that there is only one time during each month that I'm capable of potentially conceiving. And I take an ovulation test to know for sure when it is. And if it shows positive we have 2-3 days that we need to have sex - AND you have to c^m inside me...

Well that time came and I was curious if you remembered what I had said. I mentioned I was positive and we needed to have sex for the next 3 days - Fri/Sat/Sun. Friday night I went to bed cause I was tired and you were up on your computer. I thought to myself "well I guess he's not that interested in trying for a kid". To my surprise when he came to bed he wanted to have sex.

I'd have to say that the sex we had those 3 nights in a row were really good. I guess maybe I felt it was a little different because it was kind of for a different purpose. You seemed to really enjoy it and take a little more time and pleasure with it. Or maybe its just me.

Anyway, I won't know yet for a few more weeks if it worked or not. I won't even try to take a test unless I'm a week late on period.

Still!

After 3 days of sex you have to go for the extra stuff. Immediately the Monday and Tuesday your looking at it. I mean come on... you just got laid 3 days in a row and you still have to go view the extra porn? I just don't get it.

I've done it

I've purchased my first wieght loss gimmack. I guess I'll see how it works.

As for the dermatologist? Since we're trying to conceive he is unable to give me a pill that can help from the inside out so I can only use prescribed cleaning wash and after wash gel.

blech

As I mentioned in an earlier post I have PCOS. A few of their side effects is acne and gaining weight and I was graced with getting both. Granted there is a nice long list of other things but with my already tarnished self image because hubby is looking at porn these two things don't help me.

I've got an appointment to see a dermatologist to help with the acne. And I've been working out to help shed some pounds. Starting to watch all my fat content in the things I eat. Its starting to get that I don't want to eat or eat very little. I want to find one of those quick diet pills. Looking into body rubs that help tighten the skin.

I am getting older so I should know that (and I do) I don't look like I'm in my 20's anymore. But again with hubby using key word searches on a daily basis for "young babes" it doesn't comfort me any.

kinda funny

It's kind of funny... but its not.

You got a virus on your computer. You said it was when you were trying to download a Batman/Joker wallpaper.

I think its karma for looking at all that porn.

out tonight

It's funny. You keep saying that you're gonna stop going out with your friends, especially one in particular, to have a beer. Reason? Because you can't just have one.

And I know this to not be true. You and I went out last night for a wonderful dinner and you had only ONE. You just choose not to stop and continue until the next thing you know you're trashed.

You wonder why I just laugh and roll my eyes when you say you're not drinking anymore or that you're going out with your friends but you're only gonna have a couple... well I do this because you haven't proven yourself true to your word... When you do this I will be grateful.

Not that you drink all the time like you used to but its just that when you do you go all out.

And since you're out with your friend now having a couple of brews we will not go out and do our other passion - watch a movie. I've told you before that if you go out on a Friday night to drink then we do not also go out to watch a movie. Its one or the other.