Will it actually last this time?

A month or so ago we had company staying with us. While you and I were out running some errands we were talking about joining a gym. I made a comment that would be cool then maybe we would have energy to have s*x more often, you agreed. Then I made a comment about when that happened you wouldn't need to visit your girlfriends anymore. You asked me when I thought the last time you had gone to one of those sites was and I mentioned a couple of weeks. The way I figured it - kind of hard to "sleep in" and check them out in the morning with company in the next room. Or to "come home early" again due to company.

I was a little shocked to find out that was untrue. You had managed to find a way. Should have known when you were working on your wireless on your laptop that you would try it that way. Of course as it always does I immediatly go into a funk at the discovery. And per normal you noticed and asked what was wrong. Usually I say nothing but this time I didn't.

I asked why you still look at that stuff. We had a bit of a conversation about it. You mentioned that obviously I don't approve and you'll no longer do it again. Of course I was thinking to myself "every time I bring this up I've never 'approved', that's why I bring it up!" Either you've gotten WAY better at hiding it or so far you have lived up to your promise. I'm finally starting to trust you in this matter again. I just hope it continues. :-)

uh huh, right

You know those allergies you have? I hope that its not that bad tonight since I used your pillow to dust off the entertainment center.

I know you've gone to visit your girlfriends a few times since our last conversation. Funny we were watching a few "to catch a predator" shows that gives unseen footage from when they actually aired. One of the guys that was of course caught kept saying "I don't know, I'm just bored". You said, "what kind of an excuse is that - I'm bored?" I kind of laughed to myself because you used the exact same excuse to me.

Mr. Bored, I hope you felt better after your little action from this morning before work and of course after I left. My hint that you did something? You move the curtains over in the bedroom to make sure I have left... MF.

Wow!

OMG! I think I'm pregnant!

I'm not currently on any medicine to help me get pregnant. I had gone to the Dr. recently to discuss this but was waiting for my period to start to do another required test before beginning something new.

About two days after my period was supposed to start I decided to take a pregnancy test. I always thought I would wait at least a week after my period was late because I'm not always consistent with the start date. But something was just a little different this time.

It came back positive for being pregnant!!! :-)

I went to hubby, who was watching tv:
me: um, we need to talk
you: did I do something?
me: um, yeah you did.... I'm pregnant (showed hubby test)
you: really?

It's still unbelievable. I haven't been to my Dr. yet to confirm but I'm taking prenatal medicine. We finally had sex since the announcement and of course hubby said afterwards, "this won't hurt the baby right?" :-) no.

Brought it up..... again.

We were having a discussion about next year and things we should be doing, kind of a New Years Resolution thing. I don't really believe in those though. You mentioned that I should join a class of some sort, anything that I was interested in. I didn't really offer much on the subject.

Then I finally decided to offer something. I looked at you and said, "can I tell you the truth?"
You: uh oh
Me: the reason why I'm never interested in joining any classes or extra curricular activity is because I worry that anytime I'm away from the house for any extended period of time that you're visiting your girlfriends. So anytime I'm gone you're looking at them.
You: I just get bored. - a bit of silence - okay, maybe I should work on this.
Me (thinking to myself) sure, I've heard that one before.

Interestingly though you were at home the other day sick from work. Of course I checked when I got home. I didn't see anything. Of course this could be a short time away from them. When you get "bored" again, I'm sure you'll be back.

You f^cker

F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^ck You! F^CK YOU!!!!

You are a mother f^cker.

Since you are going into work a little later than me you had some spare time to spend with your girlfriends. We had sex 3 times week before - I even let you f^ck me in the *ss one of those times. And we had sex 2 times last week. I guess just not good enough.

I did kind of bring it up to you.
Me: "you left one of your girlfriends websites up on your computer" (are you really gonna try and call me a liar?)
You: "oh, you checking up on me?"
Me: "nope, you left it up on your computer. I watched it a little and then closed it for you."
You: "what did you think?"
Me: "uuuuummmmm... yeah..."

OH! And as I'm out having another Dr appt to figure out how I can possibly concieve our first child your at home spending even more time with the girlfriends. I almost made you come with me out of fear you would do that. Your just a f^cker.

Maybe there is hope?

I've been doing some research on PCOS and getting pregnant. I've gone one route already with Metformin but that didn't pan out. I've read that Clomid is another really good option. And then I found out the other day of another real good possibility - it's called Femara. Evidently this is VERY new, so much so that everything I find about it talks about how its used for Breast Cancer. But I've talked to two ladies who have taken it and got pregnant immediately. That sounds so promising. I have an appointment with my OBGYN in early December so I will be bringing this up to her.

Go Figures

One day last week you got to come home early from work. For a few minutes while I was still at work I wondered.... will he? Then I thought, no we're doing good and he's not interested - really.

Well I was wrong. Granted you didn't do a lot of looking, but you did look. Thanks hubby - I love you.